I have to say that it was hard and frustrating, I lost my patience and was not always graceful under it’s fire, but here I am, a little burned and scruffy, but better for it!
You see because I have spent most of my adult life working in the alternative health industry, walking the path of the divine in support of women as they birthed their babies, celebrating with them the changes as they moved form women into motherhood etc…. It was confusing to me that there was the possibility that I was not quite in the right place for my unique gifts.
When I finally allowed myself to admit that being up all night with a birthing mom, and then coming home to my own children I was tired and grumpy and something was not settling right. In the end was not to be a doula for more then 5 sweet years before I totally burnt out. My body let me know with exhaustion and anxiety every time the phone rang, and I knew in my bones that it was not quite the right place for me. I have been using bodily these signs as a guide post ever since.
And so came the close of a very busy summer and beginning to fall and then suddenly excitement kicked in as I realized that there was a week-end marked off on the calendar that had been there since the beginning of July for me to go on a retreat!
My bones were telling me that I needed a spiritual break, a getaway of sorts and what a better place to go then to Nao’s new home in the country Honey Grove Farm!
I am back now, refreshed and convinced that this is to become my new annual tradition. To retreat deep into the forest, spend time with myself, my spirit guides, and my dear sweet friend Nao for some soul sister work!
Here are some photos of my adventure, starting with the flowers, oh the flowers!!
We journeyed deep into the forest where the divine woman who owns the property keeps her small round healing hut. As we walked it felt as if we were entering into an enchanted wood and then both of us laughed out loud for we realized that between our deep red cloths and baskets we both looked like Little Red Riding Hood!
Yes there was twirling, and laughter as we told jokes about the wolf, and then we journeyed on to a forest clearing where we soon we were joined by many beautiful and wise young women. The evening was so beautiful there are simply no words to describe it, and so a photo will have to suffice, but ahh but it still does not do it all justice.
Perhaps that is the secret of full moon enchanted nights?