Tonight I sit under a full and stunning moon, away from the lights of the city, deep on the north coast of the island of Kauai in Hawaii, the stars and bright and and the night clear, the little ones are fast asleep and my two who are old enough to stay up with us adults are inside signing and playing guitars with their uncles.
My own family, as in my mother and father and siblings live on the east coast and i have never celebrated even so much as a birthday with them for they raised me as a Jehovah’s Witness until I was 15 and then I was disfellowshipped. What this means is that I was cast out from the community, my religion, and essentially my family. My parents not being allowed for speak to me, although my mother did until abut 6 years ago.
I will not go into the intense details of my rocky early life, but I will say that I have been living on my own since I was 16 years old and have had many struggles, depression anxiety and lonely moments in my life. The layers, as with most of us go deep, and it is always a revelation when after years of inner work something new is reveled to me, the pain fresh and the healing powerful, and I am sure that it is in the knowing how hard things can get, that allows me to feel such gratitude, as joyfully as I do–which in tune makes me feel grateful for I have had many difficult teachers along the way, each one a gift.
Yes tonight I sit here feeling filled up with life, with family and what I have manifested for myself over the years since. I look up to the moon, tears spilling from my eyes and thank her for always being there, no matter where I am in the world the moon is always there!.
Full Moon Blessings...